Paranoia paralysis – a personal prison.

Ego has been using paranoia as a way to control me for years – to the stage where I rarely go outside and, when I do, making sure to avoid communication with others where possible. There have been exceptions to this rule as-well as times where I have broken through the self-made barrier. It was not until today when my Loving partner mentioned that I might do well to research paranoia that I took a dive into this excerpt of truth that Ego has been confining me with – realising now that by barricading my mind with conspiracy-like constructs, I have had an internalised loop and spiral of fear keeping me within. Ego knew that by pin-pointing my fears – I would self-sabotage in the very way that I was attempting to self-save and protect. The sooner inner voice is gone, the sooner Ego’s channel to the mind, and therefore communicational control will be gone. 

“In paranoia, your fears become amplified and everyone you meet becomes drawn into that web. You become the centre of a threatening universe.” – mind. (mind.org)

Paranoia is a way for Ego to use lack of evidence to the advantage of imaginary based narrative – the definition of a conspiracy theory being based off belief rather than fact. The shame. guilt and fear emotions that can be ignited with this pattern of thinking use a person’s doubt and uncertainty to overpower higher processes that would undo this malware mechanism. A great way to override this Egoic-enslaved strategy would be to express these thoughts – preferably to a person who will be non-judgmental and unbiased – a clearer way to outsmart this plight of Ego would be to cancel out its channel of verbal communication to your mind entirely by wiping out inner-voice – this is the plan.